懷念你，弟兄

剛從加拿大那邊收到噩耗，一位以前團契的弟兄離開了我們。我感到震驚之餘，腦中也浮現了很多我們相處的片段。

雖然和他相處了只有一兩年的時間，算不上是深交，只是，他風雨不改地參加團契，對於當時人數很少的我們來説，總是一種鼓舞。記得他分享年少時參加教會生活時的喜樂，我就明白，爲什麽他從不間斷地參加我們的聚會。神透過弟兄姊妹給他的祝福原來是這麽大。

當他感概地說，爲什麽他所參加過的團契都沒有了，相信沒人能夠給他答案。美好的教會生活，一定是他一直嚮往的事。雖然他剛剛找到了新的團契就已離開，但我相信，現在教會的生活只是將來更好之事的縮影。到了那日，我們不用再到處去找去問，因爲，天上的團契是會好得無比的。

懷念你，弟兄。

不同

面對着一個與自己意見極爲不同，而行事方法和態度也很不一樣的人，你會怎去處理？

可能你已經不屑與他再談下去，大多不再理會他的意見；或者有人會踩低他人，抬高自己；甚至會有人慫恿其他人「撐」自己，排斥他者的聲音。這些事情絕不罕見。

只是，要找出共同努力的平台（common ground）、解決事情的方案，是要花上相當大的氣力和精神。這亦需要很大的忍耐和智慧。

我相信，要去抹黑、結黨、放棄，比起與這個和你這麽不一樣的人相處，可能容易得多。對於好像有鋪癮去講人是非/壞話的香港人（尤其是女士）， 這是難上加難。

保羅卻寫道：「若是能行，總要盡力與眾人和睦。」（羅馬書12：18）

這亦是對弟兄/姊妹最大愛心的表現。

Grace Reunion Pics..

Ok, finally some pics from Kevin:

Why did I make that face?

Jocelyn: What are these uncles and aunties doing?
(scratching her head...)

Don't you just love Eunice's (not mine) facial expression?

Anderson is as fun as watching treehouse?
(Don't worry Andrew, from the way he looks at a girl..
I believe his sexual orientation should be ok)

House owner+other sisters are very happy

Edmund is talking... and look at the audiences' response (esp Cc)... hahaha

Edmund asking Jessica to sign the "declaration"...
as Kevin said, we haven't signed anything
since the same-sex issue in 2004
very serious stuff, I tell you

Victrine signing...

Jocelyn got to sign as well!

My 2009 birthday cake...

禱告

《禱告》

禱告　因為我渺小
禱告　因為我知道我需要　
明暸　你心意對我重要
禱告　已假裝不了
禱告　因為你的愛我需要
你關懷　我走過的你都明白

有些事我只想要對你說　因你比任何人都愛我
痛苦從眼中流下　我知道你為我擦
在早晨我也要來對你說　主耶穌今天我為你活
所需要的力量你天天賜給我　你恩典夠我用

有時候我不明白自己爲何經歷這些事情，在無奈和失望當中，甚至看不到出路，但神自己卻肯定了祂是與我同在，這就已經是最大的安慰。

「與困難生活在一起，就是相信在困難中仍有值得生活和擁抱的地步... 況且，人生的成敗不在於能戰勝多少的困難，卻在於上主的愛和友情。」（神聖與凡俗 - 龔立人）

Jet-lagging

Widely awake at 6am. Can't sleep even my body tells me it wants to.

Geez....

Got a full-day booking when I first got back to my clinic. I think that's the first time. Also got a patient that really pissed me off. Gave me a headache as I need to talk to boss again, which is something I don't feel like doing. You know, he can be weird at times.

All the stress returns as I come back to this office. Welcome back Karen.

Thought about quitting many many times. But I just don't know where to go as it seems the industry is so small in Hong Kong. I never plan to switch job every now and then if I'm not forced to.

Somehow I feel like I'm wasting my life here, dealing with all those emotions that are unnecessary and harmful to my health, meanwhile not really achieving anything substantial.

But hardship is hardship. Simon likes his job but just can't find one, and I don't want to stay in this field yet I have to.

Heavenly Father, have mercy on us.

「信就是所望之事的實底，是未見之事的確據。」

謝謝你們

謝謝大家給我一個這麽愉快的回憶。

從一落機的晚飯，到去cottage，還有今晚的bridal shower+birthday party，都讓我很感動。爲著我生命中有這麽多的blessings，我感謝神，亦感謝你們。 能夠與你們談談近況，我已經覺得很滿足。

其實今次回來，是一個讓我recharge的機會。昨天早上我並沒有上堂，反去了Edwards Garden獨自行了一會。因爲，我知道我需要是一個休息的時間，好讓我重整自己。香港的生活，比這裡實在沉重得多。 若不是神自己，面對這麽多的事情，我也不知道怎樣走下去。

見到你們逐個踏入人生的另一個階段，不論是工作上、婚姻或是教會生活的層面上，心裏都有很多說不出的感受。爲著你們感恩，同時亦會繼續為你們代禱。 我看到，Grace fellowship真的成長了。

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李氏一家+吉： 你們影了這麽多相，要記得email返我喔！感謝你們的招待和結婚禮物！！！我要做你們BB的契媽（或godmother)！

Peggy+Jason：我相信我不可能再住另外的cottage了。約定下年再去過！More wine and cheese next time!

Eunice：每次回來，你都會給我一個驚喜。感謝你給我的生日禮物，真的真的謝謝你！

Edmund+Cc：謝謝你們的支持！會繼續為你們的家庭和TEC禱告！

Olivia+Ben: 真的希望你們能夠回來參加我和Simon的婚禮！新屋很漂亮啊！最喜歡有個grand piano....

Victrine: Knowing that it's already not easy to find a church, finding another "ng yin joe" is even tougher. But there's always hope (hahaha). Will continue to pray for you (not just about "ng yin joe")

Andrew: 你個仔Mr. Andersen好靚仔，不過唔似你。 See you and Amy again in November!

Vincent: 多謝你百忙之中"sneak out"來與我吃飯！哈哈哈！　

Jessica：唔知點解，聽講你今次嚟唔到，大家都有餐飽飯食....

還有，感謝各大單位同我簽張petition俾Simon！！！

Btw，有無人可以upload張大圍相呀？

From your prayer letter

Is it really that hard to understand what they should do? I mean, are we really so fearful of messing up things, and that we have no idea just what life is like as a normal, healthy Christian? Why are we so hesitant? Why are we so protective to ourselves? It is especially difficult when those who are closest to you seem to behave like that as well. I continue to hope that they can be more active and pro-active themselves.

This is how I feel these days too. Lonely. Maybe that's the word. Walking in a way different from others is always difficult. When people do not concern about what you concern (especially those closest to you), it is indeed difficult.

返鄉下

每次回到多倫多，都有種返鄉下的感覺。要買這買那，給這個給那位，不過也是讓我感到快樂的事。

一下機出閘便見到那位趕著買咖啡的Eunice, 真的事有湊巧。原本要接機的人卻去了另一閘口等，哈哈哈，大肚婆可能有時思緒淩亂吧。

很高興當晚就能夠和一班弟兄姊妹吃晚飯！還有那個什麽什麽加冕儀式.... （沒有相片？？）你們每次所做的總是讓我感動。

唔，真的很有返鄉下的感覺。