「想」有時

前一陣子跟一位弟兄吃飯﹐他說我比以前開朗了。我並不覺得我是開朗了﹐因為我要做﹐要想﹐要決定的事情實在很多。但是可能近期只需專注練琴和看「大長今」﹐所以要煩惱的事情並沒有多想而已。

對於Simon﹐我真的希望神會預備一份適合的工作給他﹐讓他可以學以致用﹐為社會作點貢獻﹐亦為神作個好見證。但是我倆能見面的時間真的不多﹐想為他多作點事也好像不可以。我渴望能夠有與他多一些的一同體驗的經歷﹐畢竟這對我們的感情來說是重要的。說到底﹐我們不能夠長時間分開﹐天各一方的生活吧。但仍然感謝神﹐在這兩年來我們還能夠在一起﹐還能夠有源源不絕的話題﹐我相信這並不容易。至於下一步應該怎樣走﹐這大概要問問上帝﹐看看祂對我們的心意如何...

是時候開始想想自己未來生活的方向了。

We must take it or leave it... (C.S. Lewis)

Yes, the following is a quote from C.S. Lewis... I guess everyone will be surprised if I can write something like this...

"Why is God landing in this enemy-occupied world in disguise and starting a sort of secret society to undermine the devil? Why is He not landing in force, invading it? Is it that He is not strong enough? Well, Christians think He is going to land in force; we do not know when. But we can guess why He is delaying. He wants to give us the chance of joining His side freely. I do not suppose you and I would have thought much of a Frenchman who waited till the Allies were marching into Germany and then announced he was on our side. God will invade. But I wonder whether people who ask God to interfere openly and directly in our world quite realise what it will be like when He does. When that happens, it is the end of the world. When the author walks on to the stage the play is over. God is going to invade, all right: but what is the good of saying you are on His side then, when you see the whole natural universe melting away like a dream and something else—something it never entered your head to conceive—comes crashing in; something so beautiful to some of us and so terrible to others that none of us will have any choice left? For this time it will be God without disguise; something so overwhelming that it will strike either irresistible love or irresistible horror into every creature. It will be too late then to choose your side. There is no use saying you choose to lie down when it has become impossible to stand up. That will not be the time for choosing: it will be the time when we discover which side we really have chosen, whether we realised it before or not. Now, today, this moment, is our chance to choose the right side. God is holding back to give us that chance. It will not last for ever. We must take it or leave it."

這陣子...

說長不長﹐說短不短﹐恩典團契內的弟兄姊妹已離開了大半年。在這段過去的日子裡﹐諸聖堂發生了不少事﹐而我們團契的運作模式亦起了不少變化。有時候我會很懷緬以前一大班人一起為神做事﹐去退修會﹐搞活動﹐但同時我亦感恩神在這段時間給我出人意表的平安﹐和學會真正的將目光對準祂。以前很多人的時候﹐好像甚麼都會有人跟進﹐有人提醒。不是現在沒有﹐只是現在感覺是我要去提醒身邊的人﹐所以自己的靈命便變得很重要。與神的關係不好﹐其他事便會一團糟。以前在詩班事奉的弟兄姊妹走了﹐起初有感到孤獨﹐但卻因這樣我和其他詩班員有更多溝通的時間而變得比以前熟絡和親密。這是我相信要學習的﹐因為總不能只是與同年紀的弟兄姊妹有親密的關係﹐而與教會內其他弟兄姊妹的關係就不加以理會吧。現在教會有很多事工開始進行﹐而我和Eunice亦有份參與。要兼顧團契運作﹐教會事工與傳福音給其他年輕人這幾項事情能足以令我們很忙碌。我感恩的是﹐Vincent真的在這些日子為團契付出了很多時間和精神﹐讓我們仍然能夠享受美好的團契生活。但同時我亦祈求其他弟兄姊妹能在主內快點成長﹐有服侍主的心志。我亦祈求主將未信的人加給我們。